Monday, May 7, 2012

Connected - Sermon, May 6, 2012


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“Connected”
May 6, 2012
Acts 8:26-40
Psalm 22:24-30
1 John 4:7-21
John 15:1-8
I want to focus this morning on the Gospel lesson. The other two lessons are important, and I may refer to them, but I want to spend most of our time on Jesus image of the Vine and the Branches.
Now if you want some homework, I’ll give you a project from the first lesson in Acts. Here we see the beginning of the Egyptian church. So if you need an excuse to Google, look up the Coptic Church and read the Wikipedia article.
To set the Gospel lesson in context, Jesus is talking after or during the last supper. John includes a huge volume of material here that isn’t in the other gospels. And in this particular section Jesus is painting a word picture of a vine, it’s branches, and a gardener.
Now, as I talk, I want to you look at the bowl of grapes sitting up on the altar, a reminder of the fruit that Jesus is talking about. Secondly, I have another bowl of grapes here that I am going to pass around. Take a few and eat them. They are really good. So take a grape or two and pass the bowl and make sure everybody gets some. But when you pick them, notice how the grapes are all connected to a central stalk, to the vine.
The vine is Jesus, the gardener is God the Father, and the branches are the disciples, and it seems probable that it refers to later disciples like us as well. Jesus also claims to be the “true” vine. Perhaps he’s implying that other people or things claim to be the source of divine life, but will prove to be false.
God the gardener, prunes the good branches so they do even better. Interesting, the branches that don’t bear fruit are not cut off by the gardener. Here we see the image, the metaphor begins to move away from the vine. It looks like some branches simply choose to try on their own.
But Jesus has a stern warning. Branches are not vines. They are incapable of staying alive, (at least spiritually), without being connected, “abiding” in the vine.
Abide means to hang out with, to live with, to spend time with. Jesus is saying our spiritual life depends upon a regular ongoing connection to him.
I remember when I was a small child in New Mexico. I’d pick flowers, put them in water, and wonder why they died. Eventually I made the connection that when you cut something away from the root, it may stay green and pretty for a few days, but it will eventually wither.
So how do we connect, abide, stick close, hang out with Jesus?
There are a few things I’ve learned about my relationship with Christ. I’m sharing them this morning, and if some of them are helpful to you, feel free to use any of them.
The first one for me is to be aware of when I am not staying connected. This is a bit dangerous, as it involves feeling. Sometimes I don’t feel very connected to God, but when I look objectively, I realize that I am connected, but I feel disconnected. My feeling may or may not be an accurate assessment of my real condition.
But there is a sort of inventory I use when I think I might be disconnected.
First  - I ask myself if there is anything disconnecting me?
Second – I make sure that I have real support for my relationship with Jesus.
Third – If I do find some disconnects, I don’t try to fix them all at once, I just start with one simple thing that puts me back on a trajectory to re-connect.
Fourth – I plan every year to take some intentional retreat time. I know myself well enough to know that I need some down time, where I can be refreshes emotionally and spiritually.
So back to number 1.
When I ask where my disconnects are, I’ve discovered five areas where I get myself in trouble. (I’m sure there are more than 5 but these are the most common in my life.)
These are fear, guilt, busyness, apathy, and idolatry.
Fear – Sometimes I don’t want to get too close to God because I have a pretty good idea that God is going to ask me to do something I’m afraid to do, or seems difficult to do.
Guilt – Then there are the times when I’m avoiding God because I’ve done something I shouldn’t or I didn’t do something I should have. When I’m feeling guilty, I don’t want to be in the same room with God. Of course God is everywhere, so it’s this silly sort of routine. It’s like being at a party where you know someone is there you want to avoid so you try to maneuver around and not make eye contact.
Busyness – This is one of my best ways to disconnect from God. I’m a pastor. I excel at busyness. There is always more to do. And I can tell myself that I’m too busy to spend time with God, but that is really OK because I’m doing all this wonderful work for God, and the Church, and the Community. But really it can become another way of not taking the time to be with God.
Apathy – I really like the old word Acedia from the 7 deadly sins. We sometimes call it sloth. But it’s more than just laziness. This is when I willfully choose unbelief. I tell myself there is no God, or God can’t really understand what I’m going through, or God really doesn’t even care about the situations or problems I see or am facing. As a persistent pessimist, this is one of my real danger disconnects from God.
Idolatry – This one is another place I get into trouble. And I do it in several ways. First, I put myself in God’s shoes. I love to fix problems. And I am sometimes good at it. But sometimes I put myself in God’s place trying to fix problems in other people’s lives or myself. And sometimes I put a project or a church event, or something I really want to buy in first place, and slowly but surely I disconnect from God.
So, what happens when I find one or more of these in my life?
First, I’ve learned over the years to build in support networks. I stay in touch with other local clergy who I can share honestly with. I also have been blessed to be part of a number of support groups that help keep me grounded. Bible study and church worship are two other places where I get the support I need. I need Sunday mornings, and I need Holy Communion, the Eucharist, as much as anything else. Having regular support gives me some incentive to re-connect.
Next, I have learned not to try to do everything all at once. I have a friend who loves to ask, “How do you eat an elephant?” And his answer is always the same. “One bite at a time.” For me that means to simply do the small things that help me reconnect. Call a friend, read a favorite bible passage, use a prayer that means something to me. Do something simple and regular. One of my regular things has been to say grace at every meal. Another has been to put a bible passage on a piece of paper and keep it in my wallet so I see it every time I get money out. Those simple daily things help keep me grounded. If I do see some serious issues in my life, I go to confession. That helps me remain focused and grounded
Finally I’ve learned that I need some intentional re-connect times. This means that every year I plan and find the time and the money to do some kind of God centered retreat. It may be really fun and low-key like Family Camp. Or it may be a more structured event like a silent retreat. I know that I need a more extended time each year to really re-connect with God.
Of course the last piece of this sermon is “So What? What does it matter?” My answer is simple. The fruit we bear becomes the life of the world.  Some Orthodox Jews have a legend of the “Lamed Vav Tzadikim”, the 36 righteous. The belief is that it is because of these holy people that God does not destroy the earth. I don’t know about the legend, but I do know that when we connect with Christ and bear fruit we can change the world.
Years ago when we lived in Eagle Pass, I got a phone call. It was a young woman. She gave her name and her last name.
The last name was familiar. She talked about a possible mission trip, and told me the name of the church. It was a church in Northern Virginia that I was familiar with. And her voice was familiar.
Finally she laughed and told me her maiden name. Then she told me she was married to the youth ministry at this particular church.
I was floored. When I met this young lady she was seriously addicted to heavy drugs, and hanging out in the district of Columbia with some very dangerous gang drug dealers.
I had helped her parents basically abduct her into treatment. But she was always pretty unhappy with me, having seen me as an enemy conspirator.
Now, she talked about her sobriety, and told me some more of the story. The long and the short of it was the kids came and were a blessing to the kids at Buen Pastor in Piedras Negras.
Later I thought about how other peoples lives of connection to Christ had impacted me, and how years later my life had touched her life, and how her life had touched a youth groups life, who touched the lives a group of kids in very poor barrios in Piedras Negras Mexico.
Our connection with God matters because you may be the person whose fruit will touch your child, your spouse, your parent, your co-worker, your student, your boss, your neighbor. Your relationship with God has the power to transform the world, one person at a time.
Let’s pray.


Saturday, March 3, 2012

Crucible

I had the pleasure of hearing Kathryn Stockett, the author of The Help, speak last Thursday at a fundraiser for Casa Misericordia, a domestic violence shelter here in Laredo.

Yesterday, I kept reflecting on some of the author's personal life experiences she shared. Pain and suffering will always enter our souls.  Sometimes it will be our suffering alone, but sometimes the shared suffering of others. The suffering of loss and separation, especially death.

In some, those wounds produce a work of value and grace. And in some they simply fester and breed resentment.

We may not all have a novel in us, but our suffering will produce some great work in us if we will embrace the challenges of charity, mercy, grace, and forgiveness and set aside self-pity, indifference, hatred, and prejudice.






Thursday, February 23, 2012

My Father's Secrets

I have some secrets. Things I know that I have no right to share that I learned by accident, or were told to me in confidence.

I have some secrets.Things I have done that perhaps one or two people know, but have been committed to God's forgiveness through confession.

I have some secrets. Things I think about, hope for, lust for, hate, dislike, but have never shared. Some I will not share so that I may not injure others, some I will not share because I am afraid.

"give...and your Father who sees in secret with reward you." Matthew 6:4
"pray...and your Father who sees in secret with reward you." Matthew 6:6
"fast...and your Father who sees in secret with reward you." Matthew 6:18

Father, help me Give, Pray, Fast - in secret.

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Grumpy......Grieving

I've been grumpy ever since Easter. Little things that normally don't bother me are extremely irritating. I want to snap, lash out, and let someone have it.

I thought to myself "I'm just tired, I've been putting in lots of hours. Anne and I have both been practically living in at our jobs, and falling into bed exhausted, up early and at it again for days. There are lots of little things that need to be fixed around the house, the car, and I had to file an extension on my taxes. That's what this is."

But then I got a message from a friend whose husband died a few weeks before Easter and sorrow and grief welled up inside and I choked up. And then I knew. I was tired of loss. Big losses and small losses, and almost no time to say goodbye, to really reflect, to hash them out with God.

There was a time when we valued a year of mourning. People wore black for several months, sometimes a year, so that others would know, and they would have a reminder.

So, for the last several mornings, I've been telling God who I miss, what I miss, and asking for grace to live with loss, and to live in hope that we will someday be re-united with those we love.

Colossians 1:15  The Son is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn over all creation. 16 For in him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things have been created through him and for him. 17 He is before all things, and in him all things hold together. 18 And he is the head of the body, the church; he is the beginning and the firstborn from among the dead, so that in everything he might have the supremacy. 19 For God was pleased to have all his fullness dwell in him, 20 and through him to reconcile to himself all things, whether things on earth or things in heaven, by making peace through his blood, shed on the cross.

Sunday, May 1, 2011

Hunger

Christ Church Youth just finished doing the 30 Hour Famine this Sunday after Easter. Anne and I participated, didn't eat, and slept in the parish hall with the kids. (I am getting a bit old for sleeping on the floor!) But it was a thought provoking event for the kids and for the adults.

In some ways I wish we had done it as a parish event, not just a youth event. After all, many of us can give up food for 30 hours, and seek to set aside or to get money to help feed the truly hungry. And most of us become much more compassionate when we have felt the initial stage of hunger.

In 1971 I remember feeling overwhelmed the first time I went to the grocery store after living in Guatemala for 5 years. There was so much stuff. And people threw jars and bottles and cans away! I was shocked by choice and consumption.  I thought about how so many poor people I knew in Guatemala would have been able to re-use all that trash and how sad it was that we just threw it away.

Gandhi said, "Live simply, so others can simply live." Yet how simply? I know that Americans, self included, consume disproportionate amounts of the worlds goods. Yet, if we were to completely stop, what happens to the people who produce the goods we consume? There is some truth to trickle down economics.

I am no longer shocked by conspicuous consumption, but when I find plastic trash out in wild places, or snokeling, or walking along the beach I am saddened.  I am thankful for technology, and yet I wish that as a species we were more thoughtful about the long term effects of our actions. I wish that we could think generations ahead, not just a few years ahead.

Of course to each his own consumption. Some people would be shocked by the number of books I have. (There is no such thing as too many!) Others might be shocked that by the sheer amount of electric power Anne and I consume to cool a house that we are not in for at least 12 hours a day.

Ultimately there are no simple, easy answers. But it would do us all good to reflect on what we need versus what we want.  Jesus reminded us to store up treasures in heaven, and not to be overly greedy for this world's goods. It seems to me that he and a great many other wise people have thought the same. Perhaps they know something I need to learn.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

48 days and counting

Easter Sunday is over. But the season lasts for 50 days.  Jesus apparently kept showing up for the next 40 days, usually unexpectedly. And then at the end of those 40 days, he tells the disciples to gather and pray. So for the next ten days they gather daily and pray. And suddenly on the 10th day, the Holy Spirit descends.  So if you wonder where that custom of a novena comes from, you can stop wondering!

So what comes next. Next is being the church. Praying, loving, working, sharing, caring. And expecting God to do things in our lives and the lives of those we love.

So, time to get up and enjoy these next 50 days. Consider praying at a regular time for 10 days, starting on June 2, 2011 until June 12, 2011, and see if God does something new in your life.

Of course you could start praying now and see what happens if you pray for 48 days!

Monday, April 25, 2011

Pearls

In a drawer in a safe at Christ Church are several pearls. They are part of an old necklace that belonged to a maiden parishioner whose belongings were willed to the church when she passed away more than 20 years ago.

They're not in great shape, nor particularly valuable as jewelry. But they represent someone who was deeply loved by many of that church.

Jesus speaks of God's kingdom by talking about a merchant on a journey who finds a pearl of great value. He sells all he has and returns to buy that one pearl.

The events of Maundy Thursday, Good Friday, and Easter are God's way of showing us that the valuable pearl is us. The merchant is God's Son. He "sells" all he has to acquire us.

Like those pearls in the drawer, we may not seem particularly beautiful or valuable. But to God we are people of infinite value and worth.

The Father raised Jesus from the grave to show that his offer of eternal life, of everlasting companionship with God and one another is what God most longs for.

And deep inside if we will allow ourselves to set aside our fears that this can't possibly be true; if we remove our cynical shell that keeps us from ever really giving ourselves deeply to Christ; if we move past the fear of possible hurt and grief - we will find that we are the pearl so valuable to God, and that God is the pearl we tried to find in other activities and pleasures that never quite satisfied us.

Jesus knew his life would end and he made it count. May we know that our lives will end and make them count.


"He is no fool who gives what he cannot keep to gain what he cannot lose."
Jim Elliot